So my posts have been a little dark. That has been the way this journey has been going. I have had some moments when things seem to be going alright, then something happens. It has been a different thing every time. I can't list them all, but this last one was the tsunami, whatever ground I had gained I feel as if I have lost it all. Well that was the reaction to that news, the truth is that's probably not completely true. I am sad, I am hurt by this new news, I am lonely... Yet, I am moving forward. New house that I like, good neighbors just down the road, I work with guys that I like and my church is supportive for the most part, my family is constantly present and willing to listen and love, my daughters are seeming to do pretty good through all of this... tonight since I couldn't be with the ones I loved I cooked really good food.
It was delicious!
I am not healed, I am not ready for a new relationship, I am in the middle of a very stormy existence, but once in a while the sun peaks through and reminds me there is hope, there is love, there is more to this world than the rejection and pain that I am feeling now. This is a good thing.
In hope I believe anything is possible. Because for all intensive purposes hope really is just a version of faith.
God bless!
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