So my daughter mentioned in passing today that Alyssa gave me these stuffed animals. I said oh that was nice. I asked if she bought it at the neighborhood kid sale and she said no not that Alyssa. Jeff's Alyssa. She said that in passing and said while we were at Jeff's she gave me these. I said Oh I don't know Jeff he must be a new friend.... Yeah, Jeff's the boyfriend, he has kids I guess and they have been hanging out with my daughters. I kept a straight face. My oldest got a weird look on here face and said yeah he's a new friend.
I had a growing panic building inside of me, thankfully my ex arrived and I was able to rock and roll. Such a weird collections of feelings flowing through me. What should I do rage, scream, cry, etc....
No.... I prayed for my ex. I prayed for her protection. I prayed for her wisdom. I prayed that she would move slowly. I prayed for her heart. I prayed that she would see with eyes that only He could give her.
I know that I will never get her back. My love for her didn't matter when we were married and it doesn't matter now. Yet, I do pray that His love for her does. Please help her move slow enough that He can make her whole. That His love will surround her, will course through her, will make her whole before and as she moves on to another.
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